Today we went to Our Lady of the Lake hospital for a mass given for children who have passed in the last 5 years. There was a nurse that works in PEDS 1 who told her story about her child who had cancer and passed in 2000. The hurt never goes away. Everything she said I totally got! It was the first time someone I talked to knew exactly what I was thinking and feeling. She told me she noticed I keep a smile on my face and thats what she did but she knows how I really feel behind the smile.
They guided us put a butterfly on a tree with Bella's name on it. Then they played Somewhere Over the Rainbow. It was so special but I definitely could not hold back the tears. Thank you for honoring and remembering our children.
I have to say it gets harder and harder everyday that goes by and I'm sad to say I can't imagine it getting any easier.